So its a new year with another new post. Hardly i ever blog! please lah! Well anyways so much have ever since happen as such having a new life with someone I'm really meant to be with this time. If i would have to say this proudly and honestly, yes she is the one and that can never be changed! I lose her i become a priest oh! So well it was meant i guess for the return of me back to the place they call land below the wind is something really meaningful as such things work miraculously. And I'm glad i met you! You! Maryanne ! if you are reading this.. hehehe.. like in her earlier post i guess u can see the way we met and all wouldn't judge that some day i would eventually be with her. We used to talk a lot but well never knew we went this far as being together.. We don't share same thoughts that's something good because i guess we always have something to argue about and life doesn't get that bored! Gladly we can just sit and talk. Like even people can think we are like best buddies but deep inside there we know we care and love for each other so much.. Awww I'm being all too sweet right hunn.. ! but to be honest with you she is the one who change lots in my life and getting things straight for me in life. I'm never gonna be that all depressing guy anymore since ever smile or laughter she makes is something that cherishes me for the rest of my entire day. She will always be my everlasting thought for the rest of my life! I love you so much Maryanne Funk!

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Had a Great Lunch with Dearest Devan just now. We were suppose to have lunch at Damai but ended up at Mcd Drive Thru~! LOL...He had 2 Spicy Chicken Burger and I had a cup of Strawberry Sundae Ice Cream..hehehehe..~! It was fun just spending time talking to him in the car while driving up ..=) Although he was 1/2 hour late, but it was still Fun~!!! Laughing with him is just so priceless! He still makes me shy and blush all the time..=) Till then......I'm back to work..!

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Let's see, since I'm sharing account with Devan, I'll do a little introduction about "US"..
It was back at some where near April 2011 in Shangri-La Tanjung Aru Resort & Spa. We were working at the same Restaurant called "Peppino" .. Fine dining, pure Italian (well, not really), and I remembered the day Devan came in to the kitchen. The whole kitchen staff was excited! because, finally someone new is here to help. Guess what? he was suppose to work but instead, we were informed that he was sick and he couldn't work that day. Mood went down but it went well the next day when he arrived. LOL! first day of work, and it was already like HELL for him! because it was sooooo busy! and Chef Coco was giving him a major stress. Poor boy. I was laughing at the other end hehehehe.. He was a quiet boy. Tried to talk to him several times but he's just sooo shy and he'd go home on time.. Nyehehehe~!! but after a few weeks in "Peppino", he finally started to get use to things. We all would Hang out at this place called "Airways" ..sepuluh 3 man..hehe..So, let's skip that.

Devan and I were close. Good close friends. After a few months after that, he added me in Facebook and we started talking. The next thing you know, we were seeing each other. =) It was sweet though. I never felt so comfortable being with a man before. Everything just clicks! we can talk all day long, all night long. Our First date was on the 2nd of December 2011 with his Mum and some of her friends =) It was definitely a nervous situation for me but It was also the Sweetest moment in live.

5th December 2011 The Day our lives began as Life Partners..The Sweetest Moments, Ups and Downs, Tears, Joy, Sadness, Happiness, It all began.. We see things differently, think differently, everything had a meaning to us. I'm so truly Blessed to have Devan as my Partner. I couldn't ask for more. We're happy we found each other in a Sweet way. Not planned but it happened so Perfectly. I hope we'll Last Forever. God Bless Us and Everyone..=)

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Well here goes a story about myself.. (Like i was meant to be writing this since i started out blogging, sorry for the late introduction though). I came into this world on the 20th of February 1986 roughly around 11am to 12pm. Came in with a bumpy start ijnto this world as i was diagnosed with asthma. The late Dr.Panicker was the doctor who was the person to be in charge of getting me into this world.. There i was a non healthy baby born as a Sandakan boy (technically) i would bring in more detail on my journey towards this day as i just wanted to finish up this draft as it was left hanging for sometime now. Anyways here is a slide show of few pictures that i manage to get during the period of time a small boy.

.... to be continued soon..

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Beating a dead horse

Yee ha! No..no..no Silver is dead!

My only son lost his father when he was very young. Life for him was tough without the guidance of a father. He had resented living with his grandparents. Life with them was but miserable and restricted. He once told me, he feared that he will end up like his father.

There are strict rules to obey, daily tuitions to adhere, chores to perform and extracurricular classes to attend. He was not given the opportunity to spend time playing with other kids of his own age. Regulations were etched on the stone.

I felt deeply for him and tried to understand him. I failed. No one can. He had built a raging inferiority complex around him. He feels that no one cares for him. He was a badly misunderstood kid by everyone.

One evening, I confronted him for his irrational behavior. I was mad at him for accusing me favoring his two sisters. As a mother, a double-standard treatment is far from my mind. "What is your problem?" I yelled at him. He insisted that I do everything else for his sisters but not for him. I went on attacking him about his lack of confidence, mixing around with people of unknown backgrounds, and to top it up, his extreme degree of laziness.

I was out of my wits and clueless how to overcome the crisis. I warned him that I don't want a son for a loser and end up like his father. I repeatedly said it over a period. He soon got tired of my humiliations and stood up for himself.

Unaware that I have hurt his feelings, I continued blaming him for all his shortcomings. Suddenly he stood up with tears in his eyes, his whole body trembling, "Enough is enough! Stop comparing me with my father. I am not him and he is dead!" he stuttered. I was stunned and speechless. I felt like I woke up from a bad dream. It made me realized that I have been harsh on him and expected too much from him; a child who badly needed a father.

Since that day, my husband, Dave, his step-dad, decided that its time for him to step into his life. They talk on regular basis and discuss what lies ahead. It was in the nick of time, to save, a lost soul of a child. I am so relieved, my bad dream is over.

Today, I proudly admit that my son has changed. He has turned into a hardworking lad, self-sufficient, dependable, full of confidence and has nothing but positive attitude. A son, any mother would be proud of.

ends.

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